Devoid Thursday, December 25, 2003: What would I do with love if I had it? Neglect it, ignore it, abuse it Pretend I didn't see it And look for it somewhere else where I will never find it Why? Because I make it that way Because I want to be broken Not fixed Because I am afraid of being whole I dont want to become what I could be I don't want to live up to my potential Because I fear myself, who I was once Passion, spitit, happiness Those are things that frighten me They are the me that I left behind So I am attuned to failure, rejection This is the only language I understand I seek love because I know that by doing so I will never find it I will fail But I will do so willingly Love is part of the me that is missing I seek it because I wish to make meaning of my life Which I am no longer living And when I see myself in someone else I call it love Please don't love me Because I won't understand Chris // 12/25/2003 ______________________ Comments: Post a Comment
What would I do with love if I had it? Neglect it, ignore it, abuse it Pretend I didn't see it And look for it somewhere else where I will never find it Why? Because I make it that way Because I want to be broken Not fixed Because I am afraid of being whole I dont want to become what I could be I don't want to live up to my potential Because I fear myself, who I was once Passion, spitit, happiness Those are things that frighten me They are the me that I left behind So I am attuned to failure, rejection This is the only language I understand I seek love because I know that by doing so I will never find it I will fail But I will do so willingly Love is part of the me that is missing I seek it because I wish to make meaning of my life Which I am no longer living And when I see myself in someone else I call it love Please don't love me Because I won't understand Chris // 12/25/2003